Increasingly becoming lost.

Just finished reading The Psychopath Test. All I've got is the feeling that actually I'm suffering from a range of different disorders that are not purely beyond the extremes of normal human behaviour or warranted for some sort of medicinal use. 

This angers me as now I just have to deal with it. No point turning for help. Just get on and deal with it. 

That's just great as I'm pretty sure I'm:

Paranoid - believe that everyone's out to get me and are going behind my back to make sure my life is as miserable as possible.  Also the belief that significant others are conspiring behind my back. 

Depressed - suffer twangs of severe sadness and bouts of sheer utter miserableness. 

Anxiety - overwhelming anxiety as caused from the above two and obviously faulty thoughts about my own abilities in comparison to others. Anxiety has passed the limit of normality and on the way to puking every day...

Plagued suicidal thoughts - always think about the idea of death and always have. Have no intention of doing so but have entertained thoughts on how I'd go about it and life post-me. 

All this was vanished two weeks ago and has rapidly resumed having gone back to work. 

I think my fix would be to quit the job. And live a solitary life where I have no contact with anyone or anything. 

Alas life isn't like that is it. 

Purely feeling sorry for myself.