Oh Summer do hurry up!

Whilst I'm not taking exams for the first time in something like 6 years(!) and I can enjoy the start of Summer it's just not the same when all your friends are busy studying like crazy.

Instead I'm sat silently reading and tip-toeing quieter than a church mouse around the room.  It also doesn't help that I'm invigilating the exams which means I get to sit and soak up the nervous and tense atmosphere.  This isn't a good thing as I can be such a mood chameleon that I tend to pick up on the slightest vibe and amplify it until it's resonating in my own aura (no idea where that sentence came from).

However, being on the other side of the exam is a completely different perspective.  Viewing the students is like watching them through a TV Box.  You know they must be tense and jittery, and having intense inner dialogues with themselves about what the right answer is, which question to choose and what to write down on the paper.  But externally they don't show it.  There is just a sea of students with their heads down writing.  It's almost like a production line in a factory.  It's only after they're released that it's as if the human inside them erupts once more as they laugh, chatter, groan or whimper about what they'd actually spent the last however long doing.

It's due to the understanding of what they're going through though that I opt not to pick up a book or to doodle, but to just sit there and think but it's only by doing this that I realise I don't think much at all.  In fact when I do set about thinking, my attention span is so limited I relapse into nothingness.  It's no wonder I can't remember doing my exams as I bet that's exactly what I did then - extract answers from my subconscious and translate them onto paper without even thinking!

It's kinda scary when you think about it.

It seems to have been like that for many years, I always get asked what am I thinking because I look in deep thought, but I'm actually shocked when someone points that out because nearly always I just have a vacuum in my head.  Even as I write this, there is nothing going on...  Which is probably why it lacks coherence.

So anyway back to the point in hand, the below music video is one that I always listen to and feel the buds awakening and the leaves stretching out, the tarmac rebelling in the heat and the lazy days stretch into weeks of doing very little as Summer comes.

Here's to everyone being free soon!