Having never felt happier lately in my actual personal life I find that I am happier in all aspects of my life.
Gone are the woes and depression over what people think in my course. Whether my class teacher really does have a problem with me or whether I'm just a really bad teacher. These worries have gone. Now that I'm happy I could be blasted by my placement school for being unprofessional, unrealistic, unable to teach for threepence or just in general rubbish. I could be kicked out from this house, run over by a car, get fined thousands of pounds, land in prison...and I'd still be happy.
Right now I feel almost invincible because I'm right where I want to be in life. And having reached this self-actualisation point of reference, I have felt the stresses and strains drain out of my like leak in a pressure boiler. Life makes sense again. It's not driven by stupid silly factors. It's driven by what I like and what I enjoy.
I may be at the most stressful point of my course but I feel a release. Throw something at me world, I won't care!
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