No energy

I have no energy to write a full blog post.  But instead I'm going to write a snippet of this week in words and phrases.

Monday: Shattered, sleep walking, sleep learning, running, working, exhausted working, happiness, sadness, frustration, close to tears
Tuesday: Shattered, sleep walking, sleep learning, running, working, exhausted working, McD's, happiness, tiredness
Wednesday: Energy from nowhere, learning, studying, chatting, throwing logs onto an ancient fire, frustration, loneliness, so many people so little real people, working, friends, cuddles, happiness.
Thursday: Shattered, dropping, exhilaration, energy, walking, happiness, sadness, deepening sadness, mentalness, let down.
Friday: Apologetic, dead, dead walking, dead talking, dead sleeping, no energy, sleepiness, beating oneself up, loneliness, abandonment, laughing but feeling emptiness, just wish I could squeeze life into my heart
Today: Ill, emotionally disconnected.

I need to realise what I need.  I need sleep.

This week has been a write off. Wish it had never happened.