If you're too busy looking into the past how are you supposed to build a future.

I am more than guilty of thinking far too much of the past. Whether it be old embarrassing memories, terrible social encounters, or even just thinking about the history of the place, it is always there. Like Larkin's belief that death hangs upon us, it's history for me. Despite the fact that it's backwards looking it's almost more damaging than the unknown future. 

I can think of countless arguments or depressive thoughts about my current boyfriend's past. And why?  He can't change it. I can't change it. No one can change it. We're in the now. It's spilt milk. It's a disaster that cannot be erased. But I guess it's the consequences I fear the most. If it's been like that in the past, why not now?  And it's these thoughts that causes a human being to become trapped, imprisoned in their own stupid thought dwelling mind. It's torcherous. Memory can be a beautiful thing if only it was selective. 

Anyway, those that are busy dwelling on the past are busy not making a future for themselves...